In the beginning of my breakdown, I didn’t have capacity for very much input, so my normal stays of writing and reading were set aside. The words I could receive came from people close to me in real time. However, three artist voices broke through the darkness of severe anxiety and depression, bringing peace instead […]
A Breakdown
“Thou makest darkness, and it is night: wherein all the beasts of the forest do creep forth.” A breakdown was like being bound, blindfolded, and pummeled, then dropped in the middle of a thick, dark wood. I was completely beaten, covered in bruises and still vomiting up bile and blood when the blindfold was ripped […]
Depression
And so the winter passes. We took a sharp turn into spring this week, with the snow and frost giving way to sunny mid-70 days. Donning a tank top, I worked away at the last of the blueberry bushes, and my sun-kissed skin kept me warm all night long. It was a long, dark winter. […]
Happy Valentine’s Day/Transplant Day
Today is Transplant Day for my family. It’s been a long, hard-fought year for my mom, and it feels surreal to finally be at this place, receiving this gift, stepping into the great unknown. The following is a post I wrote last night for my mom’s Facebook prayer group, and I wanted to copy it here […]
And She Treasured These Things In Her Heart
Okay, so yesterday I woke up early, groggily whipped out a “Wednesday in the Word” post (which is a terrible name, by the way, but shows just how uncreative I am when it comes to the pressure of titles) while fielding the complaints of two fever-ridden kids and watching Daniel Tiger. That was oh, 6:30 […]
All My Desire Is Before Thee
O LORD, rebuke me not in Your wrath, And chasten me not in Your burning anger. For Your arrows have sunk deep into me, And Your hand has pressed down on me. There is no soundness in my flesh because of Your indignation; There is no health in my bones because of my sin. For […]
Contrite and Lowly: Sacred Smallness, Real Life Is Now
(post #9) see list of all posts here What does it mean to be contrite and lowly? How can a God who inhabits eternity also inhabit my heart? About 9 months ago I did a word study on Isaiah 57:15, because I was so struck by the description of a God who dwells in “a high and […]
Still The Loneliness Reeks
(post #6) see list of all posts here _________________ Where are you in this grid of stone quarried from what lies beneath the hills of Sonoma County? The Flying Goat boasts windows of sunlight, walls of minimalistic white, coffee roasted at $16 a pound, and still the scent of urine comes in its doors. Where […]
Seven Short Thoughts and a Download
First off: My homeschool weekly schedule charts are available as downloads! The number one source of traffic I receive on this site is to my AO-inspired weekly schedules (thank you, Pinterest). I’ve emailed off so many of these things and FINALLY have them on the website as simple downloads. I’m a slow duck, but may this […]
Leukemia: In His Hands (part 1)
On January 12 my Mama was diagnosed with an advanced form of leukemia. The prognosis was blunt and harsh; the doctor laid it out and left the room. Entering a state of shock, my mom turned to my dad and to her sister and said, “I feel like this is a dream.” We sat by our phones […]