My husband has been gone for six months now. He wrote that in some ways it seems impossible that he’ll see me again– that I seem almost more a figment of his imagination–and I understand. After months and months of talking through keyboards and the occasional computer screen, it is very hard for me to […]
Halfway Through This Deployment
Tonight we enjoyed Thai food, strawberries, hot cocoa and a little bit of Filipino dancing. We’re halfway through this deployment, and it was time to celebrate. Besides marking the tipping point from which we now can move downhill, today also was the official start of my third trimester. It doesn’t always feel like we’re […]
Be My Yes and Amen
This is one of those days where I feel as if I cannot go on. It’s all so heavy, the burden so heavy. “Come to me, all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” I am weary and heavy laden, Lord. I feel as if I cannot go on. The […]
September Eleven
Never, as a 21 year old girl who knelt shaking before a quaking tv screen did I begin to imagine what those towers would mean to my life. And as they fell, I could never imagine the husband I had yet to meet would one day –12 years hence– put his boots on the dust of […]
What’s Going On With The Moores?
This is a catch-you-up-to-date post, because I am receiving a lot of loving questions about the State Of The Moores. My apologies that this is super long. At least read to the middle. It’s worth it. I promise! Where in the world is David? David is officially standing with his boots on the ground in […]
Through A Glass, Darkly
We were nine days into this deployment when my daughter broke to pieces. At three years old, time is not hers to understand; so when nine days had passed and Papa still had not returned, when she still was told it would take longer, when nine months might as well be never, she fell apart. […]
In Which a Papa Shall Leave
“Do you understand that Papa is going away soon?” “I don’t think I understand.” “He is going away for a very long time to a place called _______. He is going with the army for many months.” “I don’t think I know where _______ is. Will he take an airplane?” “He will. A great big airplane. […]
Road To War
I sat on the bottom step last evening, light drifting dimly and children in bed, stifling my giggles. Justine, eyes flashing, a true friend, spouted the military frustrations we both feel in a way that made the pressure lift off of my chest. We’re not alone in this, I remembered. We rarely are truly alone. […]
Down Range
He who dwells in the Shelter of the Most High shall abide in the Shadow of the Almighty. Psalm 91:1 When the word comes that this husband of mine will be needed Down Range, I take another bite. Sip another drink. Wipe another face. Rinse another dish. And I think, this is how I’ll do […]
When He’s Gone
I’m not sure how the space can feel so silent when around me five children are all the noise that five children can make. But he’s gone, that man I married, traipsing another continent without internet or phone, and I’m alone. It’s only two weeks, and only the first of many weeks to come, […]